Not all those who wander are lost.

The choice to wander.

I believe in free will – the ability to choose my own path and the power to create my own future. However, I am not free-spirited. I only take very carefully calculated risks. I am a planner. I am a control freak. I thrive in a predictable routine. In exercising my right to free will, I have thus far made choices that lead toward stability and comfort.

While backpacking through Sicily in the fall of 2003, I met a fellow traveller who had been on the road for years. He worked at hostels in exchange for a free place to stay and found some oddball jobs to earn a modest amount of money. He stayed in one city or country until he had the desire and the means to get to his next destination. And he had been everywhere. I was inspired.

However, the downside of booking a roundtrip flight is that your traveling adventures come to an end.  At 20, I didn’t yet have the strength or confidence to roam the world without a “plan.” I returned to the States to go back to school. While my 90-day backpacking adventure opened my eyes to the world, it was a superficial “taste” of 8 different countries. I desperately craved an experience that would connect me with a culture and a people. I chose Italy and prepared to spend a semester in Rome.

In the fall of 2006, I learned the beauty of Dolce Far Niente – the sweetness of doing nothing. This Type-A, oldest child, To-Do List queen found that life is more about living in the moment, sipping a cappuccino on a piazza, than it is about working hard to be able to afford the bigger house, the faster car, or the designer clothes. This incredible discovery did have a downside – in an effort to cherish the moment, I found myself eating gelato three times a day and consequently gained 20 lbs.

On December 16, 2006, after a semester of bliss (and a love affair with Pasta), I reluctantly boarded a plane to return home and finish my degree. Curse the roundtrip flight. At 23, I was starting to feel the pressure to grow up (whatever that means). I was now 2 years behind my peers, and it was time to get serious about getting a degree and a job. But deep down I was paralyzed by a fear that I would lose myself in the transition back to American life.  I nearly did.

In the past four years, I have grown up. I have worked hard, lived fully, and loved deeply. I used the majority of my PTO to get back abroad, even if only for one week at a time. I attempted to cook a Thanksgiving dinner in Rome, I spent 10 days tromping through the rain forests of Costa Rica, and I was in Madrid the night Spain won the World Cup. I thought I could be happy traveling the way most people travel, with travel being a short detour in my “big picture.” But I was left wanting more.

On December 11, 2010, I made a decision that enabled me to finally do what I’ve been longing to do since 2003: wander. My journey would pick up where I left off four years ago – in Rome – but this time I would book a one-way flight. No plan, no itinerary, no return date. The decision was not an easy one; it meant that I had to sacrifice the home and the life that I had started to build. Luckily, those who know me best and love me most have fully supported this decision, and for that I am forever in your debt. Thank you for letting me go.


7 responses

  1. Amy

    I am so proud of you! Best of luck!!! Let me know if you have any desire to find your way to Asia…I need a travel buddy!

    March 30, 2011 at 9:17 am

  2. Kate Kauffman

    Fabulous first post Miss Wax!! Love you and so proud of you!

    March 30, 2011 at 11:07 pm

  3. Momma Wax

    Ciao, Bella,

    Can’t wait to hear more. So proud of you and a little (OK…alot) jealous!!!

    Hugs and kisses,

    April 1, 2011 at 5:03 am

  4. Candice Wike

    Absolutely amazing…I’m so excited to follow your story for how ever long your journey may be, although hopefully for a lifetime!

    living vicariously through your to-do free life,

    CAN 🙂

    April 7, 2011 at 2:17 am

  5. Maddy

    It’s been a week and a half. I do believe there should be more posts 🙂
    LOVE YOU, SEESTER! I hope you’re having the time of your life.

    April 8, 2011 at 3:46 am

  6. Cris

    Hey lady – this post almost brought tears to my eyes. I’m so excited for you, and excited to be able to follow you on your journey.

    hugs & kisses


    May 9, 2011 at 12:11 pm

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